Hey to all you ppl who read this. Be glad to know that my roommate and I have finally sat down and talked. Tears, fighting, and everything. But we're okay now.

And so you know, sometimes I forget that other people read this, so sorry if I've offended.

But we've brought out the things we haven't talked about. Such as the fact that we both deal with frustration in very different ways. She keeps to herself, I tend to rant. We're attentive to different things. And it's really all about the little things just adding up. And needing to communicate at an earlier time so that it doesn't become all dramatic.

But yeah, my neglect of remembering who reads this makes me realize I'd better quit. I could end up  saying something that I don't want peopel to read.

So yeah. Last entry. Bye.

at my job as a cCon currently. I should be working on my DVD portfolio but yeah. I'm too lazy to plug in my external hard drive. Plus the clusters w/ DVD studio Pro are currently in use. I think.

Also, I think my efforts are totally useless. There are so many better applicants than me And even though people keep telling me that I'm only applying for internship, which means they expect I don't know anything, i have my doubts.


I'm making plans to move out. Feeling like its no longer the happy relationships they used to be so long ago. I'm tired of having to be the instigator and I guess this just shows what happens when I'm not the one making the effort to fix things. Heh. Nothing gets fixed. Not my problem anymore. It's no good if only one side really cares, and honestly, after attempting recommunication several times already, none of it seems worth it. Things just keep falling and I don't see why I should be the one to try and save anything. I have no angst against anyone. If you have a problem, solve it yourself. Don't make me try to figure it out. I'm not going to do this anymore.

And I'm not being paranoid. The antagonism is blatantly obvious through what is not said.

The thing about living with other people is that you have to be vocal about what you need and want. If you aren't, it ends up the others have to tiptoe around you if they care, or they step right over you if they don't.

So I'm finding another place to live. I might move up to Squirrel Hill or get another apartment in Amberson with someone else. Having my own room is going to be a major plus.

There are no guarantees this will be a better or worse situation, but it beats sitting around and letting the discomfort continue.

back to school and back to the insane amount of work. I slept 4 hrs last night. Am looking towards 4 more tonight.

No naps either.

But good news.

I got a letter today. I am on the Dean's list b/c I got a 3.79 GPA last semester. how cool!

Hehe... but this semester, they're gonna kick me right off. Lol.

Sigh, still, it's a good thing. Intense feelings of pride right now.

As for housing situations, I think I told Yvonne and Yuliya I'm staying, but new housing situations have opened up. I could move to Squirrel Hill, and I could move in with Joanna too. So I may not have to stay here after all.

But yeah, I suppose we'll see.

Well, back at home now. And so far so good.

Went to Penn State, which was a blast. Saw Jeff again along with Jackie and Phil. Hung out at their apartment for the night, Jeff's and Katie's that is. And their cute kitties. I love them

Hmm... kay.

Computer crashed. that just sucks. A lot of files were on that, but thank god I think the important ones are on the external hard drive, at least I hope. I am finding out how undependable computer storage can be. Makes me extremely nervous since everything important is stored as information within a hard drive.

Hmm.. but then I guess everything is temporary right?

Anyways, life's not good, but for now, it's not horrible either. So I am enjoying it. Gotta look to the brighter side of things, ne?

Should probably attempt to learn japanese soon if I want to go there for study abroad.

My dad was here.

And all the memories of the past are rushing back. All the problems and all the pains.

Is that what we will be going back to?

I suppose there's no other choice but to keep on walking forwards.